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Monday, May 5, 2025

Terrorized in a Trailer Park: A True Life Experience!


Terrorized in a Trailer Park: 

A True Life Experience!




When we moved from Ohio to Florida, my family and I under went a lot of changes. Not only is there the so-called "thickened blood" scenario, but there was a lot more. And before I continue, you are probably going- what is this "thickened blood" thing anyway? Allow me to explain: that is where your body adjusts to temperature change. Ohio's summers are a lot cooler than here in Florida. And we moved from Ohio in late July, thinking it was hot, only to find out, it was even hotter in Florida. They say that your blood thickens or "something" because of this, I don't know if it's true or not, but I can tell you this. I have watched others do the same thing we did, and we know longer think of it as hot as we once did!

Anyhow, the other change was moving in with my husbands parents. Mind you, we never did get along, but my mother-in-law promised we would make this work. Her husband, my father-in-law was having heart problems and being hospitalized a lot. My husbands' siblings and mother, were portraying this as if the man was literally dying. And myself, after loosing my parent, I wanted what was best for everyone else, and this seemed like the thing.

We didn't make it a month, at there house, unfortunately. My mother-in-law managed to get drunk and have a fit, and all hell broke loose. Needless to say, she had my husband and brother-in-law thrown in jail, because of her drunken actions, and other family members and their assumptions. Yes, she of course had to involve other family members, and make it a big time scene. 

This in itself, is another "story" that I might decided to write about later! But, like I said, this was not even a month. Luckily my husband had already had a job, though. But now, he had a police record too.

In the midst of the war with my in-laws, I took the kids and ran away. I didn't know much around there, so I went to my husband's work, this way I could explain to them, why my husband would be absent, so we wouldn't lose our income. The kids and I slept in the parking lot, in our van. My sister-in-law called my husband’s work that morning, assuming I would be unable to contact them myself. She gave them a whopper of a story too, hoping it would in fact help him to lose that job. 

This was our first problem. Next was we needed a place to stay, since the schools threatened to take the kids away from us, because we were living out of the van. My sister-in-law called the schools too. Why not, assume we are living in it for entertainment. 

Luckily we made a friend, from my husband’s work, and he took us in, he let us reside in his residence, so the school lost out on taking the kids from us. We slept in his spare room, all seven of us huddled up in one bed.

Thankfully, the chapter thirteen we had filed in Ohio, was over paid, and the Judge was honest, and refunded to us the over payment. So now we had over four thousand dollars to do something with. This was a God send!

In the afternoon we go house hunting, and the only thing we can find, and get into rapidly is a trailer park. People don't want children around in Florida; they prefer the retired and elderly. These are called fifty-five and older residences. But the park we found was a family trailer park. And in this park, we managed to get the biggest trailer they had. It needed work, and the landlord told us this. We thought things were going to start looking up.

We filled out the paper work, and put a huge sum down. After completion of signing, and being shown the house and given the keys, the landlord, proudly states to us, "Now than, I'll give you a few days, before I inform the authorities and child welfare that there is no kitchen in your home, no stove, no refrigerator.
I have no choice. This is not a safe environment for children to be living." We were dumbfounded. 
Floridians must live to involve the department of children and families. How could she have been so two faced? She never mentioned this while we were considering buying the place! No of course not.

We manage clean the place up, bomb it for bugs, all this before moving in. We also start purchasing the sinks, counters, refrigerators, washers, dryers, etc, and have it delivered. The neighbors stare and gossip. They made it obvious. The landlord tells them, that we paid in cash, with a huge lump sum. Can you imagine, like it was there business?! This was not assumed by us, the manager told us she made it public knowledge! We saw no reason for them to be telling us anything about us! Apparently HIPPA is not for everyone, everywhere and everything. How fortunate. 

While moving in, they see and stare, as to what is going in. A computer, sofa, beds, you name it. The computer seemed to upset a bunch of them, so again they go to the landlord, and she tells them, yes, she is an Internet junkie. I never understood why until later. (The lady asked what we did for a living for approval.)

The landlord sent out notices constantly. For everything and anything, bogus reasons, and just to make sure you didn't forget she was in charge. She also did a newsletter. I began noticing that when the newsletters and notices were handed out, they all went to the managers' house.

Eventually I asked the manager why, and she told me, that a lot of them couldn't read. I was shocked! One time, we received a notice for making sex noises too loudly in the middle of the night. She made this public knowledge too! I know, mind blowing isn’t it?

But anyhow, I planted plants outside, took care of them and kept to myself. I am kind of shy, until I get to know you. My husband worked long hours, all the time, and was rarely home. The kids of course, went to school. When, and if the neighbors would wave, I would wave back. But notice I said if. Instead they went by saying things, making crude comments, and laughing. And they made certain I heard. They called me ‘Goody two shoes’, because I had a computer, and a husband who gave me things, three cars, and he let me do what I wanted. They made fun of me, because my breasts were huge, anything and everything that was plain as day- or told to them- they made fun of. I heard it all, like I said; it was said as plain as day, for me to hear. No secrets there.

The area of Florida in which we moved to, men are to be the boss of a marriage, and nothing is or was equal. Meals are to be on the table at a certain time, and you put out when told. My husband and I believe we are equals, everything we get is ours, and so on so forth. In this area of Florida, that is a no-no. If you think I am kidding, a neighbor had a wife who literally had to hand him beer from a cooler that sat beside him, and open it for him! I told my husband this later-never to hold his breath on getting service like that from me! He of course laughed, we both laughed.

Several trailers came up for sale, and we bought them, fixed them up and rented them out. The landlord said tenants needed to be approved by her first. So the applications were checked out by her, and she picked whom she wanted. She ended up screwing us in more ways then one. One tenant stole the toilet, (yeah you read that right!) the other didn't pay until you obtained a court order. Then she went to court, to try to petition evict me from a park, which she was not manager of, or owner of, but only a resident. In other words she attempted a counter suit.

The neighbors in this park, call child welfare and the dog pounds on each other right and left. After that didn't get them enough attention, they started calling CODE. And trust me; this park was far from perfect.
The landlord makes sure to keep the tenants at one another's throats, by spreading lies and rumors; I think it was for her own personal entertainment. She pitted people against one another, blamed people for this and that, without a burden of proof. And these people believed whatever she had to say, as if it were gold. 

But I wasn't that stupid. I tried to turn everything around, I tried making friends, and she managed to screw with that too. She told them, the only reason I wanted friendship, was to get info, to tell the authorities. So I went to her, and asked what the deal was with my husband by my side, of course. She said that I was way too good for these people, and that I need not worry what they think. She told me she was trying to get rid of the trash from the park, and told me she had in fact called child welfare on several people, and the dog pound. I told her I was being blamed for all those calls, and she told me she knew. "I can't let them know I'm the bad guy, now can I?" She said. I was getting mad. I thought this was America, freedom of choice; I should not have been condoned, blamed and abused because of this.

One evening, my husband and I are lying in bed, and the sky went orange outside. We sat up to look, and the van was on fire! He raced out of bed, and it was the drivers' seat, so he couldn't move the van away from the house that way. I was dialing the fire department. My sons were helping their father. My husband had to get his truck, hook a chain to the front, and pull it away from the house, so it wouldn't catch fire too. The fire department drove past the trailer park several times. The neighbors stood outside laughing and pointing. Once the fire was out, the fire department was talking to the both of us, when a neighbor came over to us and said, "You got what you deserved, Bitch!" That was it, I was running after him, and trust me, he was running away. The Police and Fire department men  grabbed hold of me, and kept telling me to calm down. They determined immediately it was arson. That's what the fire marshal was trying to tell us, when that man opened his mouth. The van was totaled. After the fire, since the van was pulled close to the street, but in our yard, neighbors brought people to see their prize terrorist attack on us. People drove through from out of town, pointing and gawking. The tenants were quite proud of themselves. And they would even walk by, still saying, "We got what we deserved, now move out!" Believe it or not, not a soul was charged, but like I said, it was definitely proved as arson.

Child welfare investigated us many of times. Why? Because they started calling them on us when nothing else worked. Allegedly, they were acting out against us because of the calls I was blamed to be making. It was to the point that we now knew all the case workers by name. One call, the case worker came to me, and she point blank told me, to tell her to get a warrant. I told her I didn't want the courts or police involved. She told me they wouldn't. She was just there last week, and would only involve the courts if she felt she needed to, and in this case she didn't. Another time, the case worker showed up across the street looking for me, and then came to my house looking for the one who made the call, to get facts from her. So in that case, we knew who called, and the case worker had a lot of lovely details that were made up from them. The case worker asks us not to hate the people who called, since it was obvious who did what. We did not get even.

Another time a different woman came over, announced that she called child services on me, because I looked at her husband. She said I was a lousy mother, that the landlord told her so, and had given her the number to child services. I chased that woman all the way to her home. I wasn't playing these head games anymore. I beat on her door, trying to get her to open it for several minutes, and she wouldn't. Eventually, my kids came over and took me home.

One reason Child Welfare is always called, is because our third born son has a huge mole on his waist trunk area. So when you are busy spying from a window, I guess it would look like a bruise. But it isn't. And because when it rained, the kids played in the puddles, which to them is bad parenting. And it was also how the kids were getting ring worms. Mind you, I never lost custody of my kids; they weren't being abused or neglected in anyway. Except by those in the trailer park, of course.

Eight foot crosses are planted in the yard covered in gasoline, and set fire to. I thought that went out ages ago, and I also thought it was what whites did to coloreds. We are white, so I guess they were saying we were colored. Well, I would much rather be colored, than be a red neck hick like them. The crosses incident happened two times, one time they sat it next to our new van, and covered it in gasoline, luckily we were getting ready to leave, and caught it before they could light it! Again, the sheriff departments can of course-do nothing. They have to have physical evidence with witnesses.

Mind you, I am by far not including every single detail pulled on us. There were more stunts, and on a daily basis. And sometimes, and this was my favorite-the Sheriff's did in fact witness things, and chose, that's right chose to do nothing.

In the meantime, the landlord hadn’t been paying the bills; instead she's been gambling the monies away. So she gets sued, evicted, and sent on her merry way. Now a new landlord gets involved. It seems like this trailer park is cursed for landlords. This one isn't any better. The tenants, grow weed, sell weed, and do weed, and are proud of it. They party all day and all night, and a good majority of them- don't have jobs, let alone an education.

Needless to say, no park owner could pay the bills, and keep that park a float. The tenants don't pay rent, CODE was always involved, and not one landlord was a descent person. We went through three, and the last one gave up hope. All the landlords, played head games with the tenants, and the tenants played head games with one another. I hated it; it was driving me insane, and caused me to loose control over my own emotions. I had to be put on medication. The medication was also for their safety. 

Months of agitation and aggravation continued. They would walk past my house, holding nooses, telling both my husband and I they were going to hang us. They started pulling stunts, right after the landlord said they weren’t doing anything wrong. I think these people loved entertaining one another.

Water was put into my husbands' gas tank, ruining his truck. It took months of working on it, to determine what they had literally done to it. By then the engine was a mess. My van was scratched with a key, deep writing on the trailer and shed, stating: "Move out!" and other profanity. Spray painted, written with marker, grooved into the cars. The Nazi symbol too. The kids had bikes stolen on a daily basis, plants were dug out, and put into others yards, such petty stuff. Every stunt they pulled meant the next day they would walk by asking, “What do you think of me now?” 

You call the Sheriff, because it is a small city, and they tell you daily, "There's nothing we can do, unless we see it." We ask if we can tape it, and are told no, it was against the law. Profanities are yelled from others homes day and night. Things are thrown through our windows.

We have a death in the family up North, and have to leave. We lock up the house tight, and go. There is no one to watch over it, except people from my husbands' job. When we came back, we came home to see we were robbed. Windows broke, and BB holes shot through the trailer all over. Report filed- nothing done. 

A few days go by, and when I am in the tub, someone sneaks in the back door, and comes in and beats me with three hammers. I was beaten badly, and managed to call the police. I knew who it was, and was shocked, but the law still did nothing except make a report.

My second born, is messed with daily too, and one day, they pick him up and throw him to the ground before School. They broke his collar bone. He identified who, but get this-no one was charged. They said because my son name called and agitated them, it was allowed.

My first born, walks home with this kid, and asked about that kid's sister, and that kid beat the crap out of my son, blackened his eye, cuts and bruises everywhere. All because he asked about the kids little sister. The Sheriffs did nothing, and there were witnesses.

My third born, went to this big bulky neighbor one day, as the man kept slamming on us, and I mean all of us- and he went up to him, and told him he could fight him. The guy yelled at us, to come get our son, or he was going to kill him. I call the sheriffs, and my husband goes over. My son tells him, "Dad, I'm done with this. I can take him on; let me beat the crap out of him, please!" The guy is shocked, because my third born is skinny, tall but skinny. Eventually the neighbor backs off. This scenario where my kids get fed up, keeps happening, making the neighbors nervous.

One day, this woman stands out in front of my house, as she did daily, calling out to me to fight her. This day, I did exactly what she was asking, and went to her. I told her "Let's get this over with, so we can move on with our lives. Let’s fight right here, right now. I'm ready, and obviously so are you." Her jaw dropped, and she started walking toward her house. "Now, dang it! You wanted this, let's get it done!" I yelled. She started walking faster, and I followed. Once she was closer to her house, she turned to flip me the bird, but I guess she didn't know I was hot on her tail. She freaked out, and ran into her house and locked the door. That woman never said another word to me again, after that.

To attempt at making friends with these people, I did start driving them around, after all, we had three vehicles, and the majority of them had none. So we went to the store here and there, for one, to a friend's house for another. They started being friendlier, and wanting and needing rides, and realized they could use me for this. I let them, trying to prove to them, I could be nice, and get to know them. I wanted invited over, but that never happened. I wanted them to like me, I was trying to do what they wanted, but it didn't seem to be working. I did get invited to a bar once with the manager though. David, my husband was our designated driver. The manager said I needed a night out, and deserved it, and she even bought me a few rounds. I ended up with a tattoo in my right ankle, because she said I needed one. It hurt like hell, but she talked me into it, and I admit I was curious.

The next day, a neighbor came over to view the tattoo; it was the talk of the town. Then she needed a ride to her friends to pick something up. I drove her. It was down a long and windy wash-board road. It was my first time on a wash-board road, and it was scary, I thought my van was going to fall apart. When we got to her friends, she came back out with a pack of cigarettes, she said she truly appreciated it, she needed them badly. She lit it, it was pot. I had smelled it before as a child at a concert, I knew that smell. I started quietly crying to myself. I was risking loosing my license, custody of my children for her fix. And she didn't even have the decency to ask if I minded if she smoked, I mean after all- she knew I didn't even smoke.

Once home, I told my husband, by this time- I was big time crying. He felt so bad, and told me point blank-as if I didn't already know this-"No more! That's it! You're done!" He was frustrated. He went to the neighbor and told her. She was not pleased. She didn't apologize, instead she told him, "You people need to quit being such goody two shoes. Y'all aren't better than us!" Maybe we aren't, but we also don't want to lose our kids for something that stupid-especially something someone else was doing! And as for my license, I earned it, it’s mine, and who and what I drive are my business. There are laws, and I obey them, not to mention I don’t smoke or do drugs. Never have, never will.

Eventually we started looking for some place else to live. We even moved out of that city into a totally different one. We managed to rent to own from an individual. 

How I Lost My Home-Based Business in 1998

How I Lost My Home Based Business in 1998



I was raised that Moms are supposed to be at home with their Children. And that was what I had done, for the most part. I did work from time to time; mostly I liked to work from home, however I had had my share of jobs, too. But I preferred being at home, with my children, so for the most part-that was what I had done. 
 
In 1989, I became a Notary Public, during that time frame I was an avid pen pal-person. I had noticed that there were pen pal publications out, and felt that I could do that too. So I started a Newsletter, it was called P.A.L.S. Newsletter.

The abbreviations stood for People Answering Letters Sincerely, and pals as in pen pals. We had a copy machine, and ran the Newsletter World wide. We had many subscribers, and people that paid for ads to run in the Newsletter, and many writers. Amongst those writers, were my sister Amy Lynn, and my best friend Lori Phelps.

Eventually we were able to afford a computer, so my sister, who at the time- knew more about computers than I did, taught me. We started advertising online and getting a new customer base too.

It was very educational; however, the income was not something we could legitimately live off of. 
So, I decided to make a business within a business, and made Deez Labels and we sold address labels for the most part, some business cards too.

This had an on line MSN group, and that is where you could physically view the graphics that we stored. Graphics were used to decorate your labels, and if you wanted us to use your own logo, you simply snail mailed or emailed it to us. Amy started this group for me, and showed me the ropes. 

With all of this computer stuff, in order for Amy to help me, she TOLD me what password to use, so that she could help me from home, when and if it was needed. She suggested I use my social security number, because it was nine digits, which people wouldn't figure it out. She was a God send, she might have been young, but she learned quickly, and was also very wise!

I spent time online myself, and learned a few things, of course. I had gotten AOL, Amy and Dad had MSN. I was also running an online Newsletter for chatters, pen pals, and at that time- it was called-egroups online. So, I was active and trying to help bring in monies to help support our children. 
For the most part, it was fun. Lori was only working with us from time to time visiting. She also wrote articles in the newsletter. Amy on the other hand, spent nights and week ends and summers with me and my family, helping, learning, teaching, etc. I trusted her with my life, and loved spending and doing this with her. 

After our Mother died, my Father-In-Law became ill, and they were living in Florida. I knew how terrible it is to loose a parent, and wanted to be certain my husband was there for his Father. My Father wasn't as fun-loving as my Mother; he wasn't much into the wanting to be a grand parent-scenario, either. Jobs were becoming scarce in Akron, so with all this- we decided it best, to move to Florida. This was 1998.

My sister became active with MSN groups, and chat. Or at least, that is what I was told. She made some really great friends, and even met her soon to be spouse there. He lived in England. She was going to go see him, and the only thing I could think was- what if he wasn't real, would she be killed-and would I ever see my Sister again? I was worried sick, and told her so. She assured me everything would be OK.

That did not help. She showed me his picture, and told me his name, but nothing else. All I could think of, was the rumors and crime, and how people pretend to be something they aren't- to kill and hurt people. I begged her not to go. She said to me, she had nothing better to do. I will admit to labeling him as gay- nothing more nothing less. 

I had a very close Internet pen pal friend, and her name was Mary. She talked to both Amy and I on line and off. She too, was a stay at home Mom. One day, she called me to tell me, and I quote "I'm going to be your sisters' brides' maid!" I liked to have fallen out of my chair. Amy was my brides' maid; I was hoping she would return the favor. As I sat, quietly, Mary also told me, "She doesn't want you in her wedding, because of how fat you are. She said you're embarrassing!" Now I was dumb founded. Crushed, in more ways than one.

Stupid me, didn't go right to Amy. I called Dad, he didn't know anything about it, or so he pretended. I didn't even know Amy was engaged, if she in fact was, at that time. The thoughts that raced through my head-I was so hurt!

Once I finally got a hold of Amy, I asked why she had said such crude, rude and hateful things. She denied everything. She did tell me she was getting married, and was considering paying my way to England to view the ceremony, but yes, she had decided not to have me in it. I told Amy I didn't want her marrying someone I had never met, she told me- my opinion didn't matter. I was still hurting. Amy tells me that I called her fiancé names, and made crude and rude comments. Odd, though, because I have no recollection of this. Amy has emails, which I had written, saying these terrible things, which I couldn't say on the phone- but in email alone. I tell her often, that I don't remember this, and she calls me a liar, to this day.

Amy was extremely mad at me, and to get even- she deleted my MSN group Deez Labels, and hacked into every single email account I had, and I even mean the servers. I had AT&T at that time. She closed my paypal account, which had money in it-that was never ever returned to me. And she had access to my paypal, because I LET her, she needed a place to have online monies deposited also - or so she claimed. (However, funds never were entered by or for her. I should have put two and two together but didn't.) She accessed my AIM, my messengers, and changed all the passwords. She would talk to people that would speak to me, in the IM, or email, and answer for me. Many people have later told me that she said some very nasty things.

Because she of course, KNEW my passwords. She turned everyone under the sun against me. I was no longer welcome in the pen pal world, no one trusted me, and I was literally despised and ruined. Then came my bank account, it was cleaned out daily. This would cause us to be unable to pay bills. A dialer virus was attached to an email, and then attached to my computer, and it would send my files to Amy and Dads computers. Things were being ordered online and off, and sent to various places, including to my sister and Fathers house. My snail mail- to my own Father- for his birthday and Father's Day- was being sent home to me, marked "Return to Sender-Refused!"

It had gotten so bad and so serious, that the government had to investigate the situation. I had to sign waivers, pressing charges on whoever gets caught. Sometimes it makes me think, though. These emails that I had allegedly sent- WHO really sent them? Especially since no matter what I do- I can't remember SAYING what I am told I said! But no one wants to hear what I have to say, anyway. And if and when anyone listens, I am only told I am lying, or that I want attention. God forbid, if I defend my own honor, or get to say my piece, or should I say peace, which is truly appropriate here?!

My life became a complete and total mess. I was ashamed and embarrassed. I loved my sister, and still do. I didn't want others to know, just how much she despised me. I kept quiet for the most part. Only my immediate family KNEW because they dealt with my tears, fears, and sorrow. But I am not a quitter. I strive to survive, and always want to be a success and make something of myself. So, I tried to get back into pen palling, and no one will have me, or accept me- those that were my so called pen pal-friends-they believed everything that was TOLD to them. I tried to rebuild the business, and no one would deal with me. I made new email accounts and made certain to put a block on them right away, (my sisters' email) and NEVER use anything my sister knew, or could figure out- as a password. I could not believe my sister hated me this much, over a man none the less! But there is ALWAYS an excuse. Always, and it is always my fault too! To this day, this hovers over BOTH of our heads, haunting us, and giving us both so many regrets! My sister no longer wants anything to do with me. I have to send post cards to her, because they don't have a return address on them. I wish her happy birthday, and holiday happiness. I miss her. 

Every single time my sister and I try to start over, the trust is just not there. I can say it is, she can say it is. But it isn't. Everyone tells me to watch my P's and Q's with her, she is depressed, she has this wrong with her, and that. Always giving me lame excuses, sometimes the excuses aren't lame, but why can't it ever be a two-way street? Instead, they ALL give her the go ahead to misbehave.
  
No one cares, what is happening to me, what HAD happened to me, or anything. People always assume I am strong and will recover. Not once did anyone say to me, "How is it going," or "I'm really sorry that had to happen to you..." All I got was, "Well, she is having problems, so she lashes out at you!" And my ultimate favorite, is "It isn't Amy, someone else did this, not her.

She could and would never hurt you, she loves you!" However, Amy TOLD me she did this, and WHY. The only thing she denies is my bank account being hacked and stolen from. But I can't honestly believe her, when it ALL happened at the same time, and what the government found on my drive! Not to mention, when things were being sent to her house. I mean, she does deny the items coming, but how can I know- she's there, I'm here.

Amy and I have tried numerous times to start over. It doesn't seem to work. And because she is up North, and a good majority of my family is there- she has the advantages of programming them- to believe whatever she says as true, even if it is-and even if it's not. No one ever wants to hear my side, no one. And no one believes anything I have to say, either. And trust me, my family once cared, and listened, and I once mattered. But that is no longer. I'm sure you can figure out why. It is obvious.
  
Yet, Amy says I program my children to hate her. They simply don't know her, they don't want to know her, and they FEAR her, after-all- they do know- EXACTLY how she made their mom feel. Is that a good thing? No! But to children, they care- how their mom feels. She is mad because I told my children, because it is one sided. I had to explain why I was crying, now didn't I? I don't lie to my children!

But, that is what she is doing up North, to ALLof my family. No one is in contact with me, they call me mental, and they all proudly hate me. Now tell me, Amy isn't that one sided? Yes, I know- deny everything. Blame me. How dare I! You are doing everything to fix this? By telling them more things, and only bad things. How is this helping? I must obviously see things differently. Perhaps I shouldn't care, maybe that would be a start? This is where I am getting confused.

All I have ever wanted- is a family and to live happily ever after. And compliments of this crap- the vengeance continues. Maybe not directly by Amy, but by her friends, and HER family. The drama continues. Her friends post rude and hateful comments on their social media accounts about me, she claims she has no control. Yet I am to control my friends. I am given orders, things to obey and do, rules to live by. But those rules don't apply to her. And she tells me, literally tells me to respect her and not to correct her, wrong or not. This is just not right.

She tells me she respects me, but I am not blind. Nor am I dumb, or mental. I am quite frankly fed up. I have a life, and I have Children of my own, and no one deserves so much hatred in their lives. No one should have to live in fear, every time they make a wrong move, of being hacked, TOS'ed, reported, and deleted, not to mention, PUBLICLY humiliated. But that is EXACTLY how I have to live. I am perplexed, and unable to make this stop. Every time I try, someone else interferes- even her friends. And she lets them. And I DO have to watch my P's and Q's or the wrath starts all over again. This is why, I have given up. I have to focus on MY direct family, they are what matters now. Other than that, I put this in the Lords hands......

And to Amy- I apologize for everything and anything. Most of all, I apologize for being your sister! We will always be flesh and blood, there is no denying that! (However, allow me to interject here. She did a twenty-three and me test and posted that I was publicly no relation to her or anyone in our family!) Thank you, for being my sister, for putting up with me, and loving me when you did. I am so sorry, that OUR world fell apart. I hope you have a wonderful life! God bless you and keep you safe! For your sake, I hope that karma doesn't exist. I don't hold a grudge, I just live in fear, that's all. To my family up North-thank you for supporting Amy in her time of need. I hope that you all have wonderful lives, and that God watches over you all, and keeps you all free from harm.

Everyone tells me to my face, and over the phone- they aren't mad at me. They want me to email and keep in touch. When I do, I get TOS'ed. If this is love, and this is not hatred- I am literally and truly scared of what there REAL hatred is like, let me tell you! LOL One thing I try to use to build myself back up though, is a phrase my mother always said to me: "When they are bothering you-they are leaving someone else-anyone else-alone!" I would love for them to focus on someone else though, especially with all this-so called love. Like I said, I leave this is the Lord's hands.

When our father was ill and dying, Amy tried to keep me from seeing him in the hospital. Once I fought my way through the hoops and ladders, bells and whistles, she would not allow me to see him alone. Only Amy and I visited him. I went back home to Florida, and he died a few weeks later, just after the first of the month, so that Amy could still claim his income. My husband and I traveled as fast as we could, because Amy was running everything and seeing to it that he was put in the ground fast. Her hopes were that I would miss everything. She gave him a military funeral, something he drilled into us as children not to do. When they did the handing of the flag, they gave his flag and the bullet castings to Amy. She identified as his wife. My own siblings, and their spouses were dumbfounded. 

After the funeral, Amy had my brother call me telling me to come over and visit. Here's the thing. Amy managed to get ahold of me while we were enroute to Ohio. She gave me a directive. Not to show up on her property or she would have me arrested. Our father's home, where she lived with him. Now she had my brother calling me, so that she could have me arrested. She had recorded the phone call, so it was made obvious I knew I wasn't welcome on the property. And now she was summoning me through my brother. No deal. I was not going to be put in jail where I no longer lived. 

I received nothing from my father's death; I was lucky we made it there in time. The funeral home director told me that she had the police there, because I was expected to lash out. I did no such thing. My Aunt and my cousin helped to identify me as a terrorist. During his funeral, my sister acted like my father had just become a Christian on his death bed. If she would have ever paid attention, she would have heard the same stories I did. He was Methodist and sprinkled as a child. She also acted like a Nazi and did the Hi Hitler move and made everyone in the audience jump. She was loud and bellowed that Christ had forgiven him. 

I miss my family. I miss what it once was. Sadly, it will never be the same. No apology can help. 

I would also like to add that my sister is divorced, and her marriage in England did not last. I will not tell you why, that is her story to tell. As for me? We are still married and still living in Florida. My sister still wants nothing to do with me, and to this day, is still spreading lies and gossip. 

Leave it to my sister to prove my husband right. “Family is always first to screw you.” Also? Now you know why I have trust issues. 

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Remembering the Blue Hole

Remembering the Blue Hole:


My family tried to take family vacations and outings every so often. Basically, we learned what our very own state had to offer. Once in a while, we would step outside of our borders, but not very often. Our parents liked and tried to make everything educational. Or so it seemed.

One of my favorites, was 'the Blue Hole' in Castilia Ohio. It was amazing, and educational. The water was freezing cold and very blue. It was a spring coming from the under ground, and the water would never get warm and heat up. It would always be cold. There was no end in sight, and they claimed divers had investigated it, and never found the end. You could see clearly, fish, sea life, everything. It was beautiful. They did find a spring coming in, from underground, they said it came from the Connecticut area, or so they thought.

They had a gift shop, a place to see how and where, and even why, and that explained the breeding of fish, and hatcheries. It was amazing. Even the gift shop had some very unique items. Even as a child, I was fascinated. 

I ask every year if we could go back. Some time later, we had heard that it had closed down. I was upset and couldn't understand why. My Dad explained to me that it was privately owned, he heard it wasn't bringing in much business anymore. I was astounded, because I thought everyone would want to see and know, and that they would be just as fascinated as I was. But apparently not. 

The owners sold it. My heart broke. I cried. I felt sorry for the fish, I worried that people would destroy the land, and come in and investigate and ruin the beauty and water, and cold spring that God and Nature had put there for a reason. 

To this day, I don't know what has become of 'the Blue Hole' in Castilia Ohio. I just hope that whomever bought it, has not destroyed it, and left it as God and nature has intended it to be.

Here are a few photos I found for your viewing pleasure:


See how you see into the water clearly?


Here is a brief description


This tells you about 'the Blue Hole' as it was. It was an amazing place. If you have ever been there, then I'm sure you understand. If you haven't, than I apologize. You have missed something extremely memorable and beautiful that will stay with you forever.

To those who own 'the Blue Hole' now. Please be good to her. She is beautiful. I beg of you. You own a piece of heaven now. 

~Deneale 



Tuesday, November 25, 2014

I Thought About You Today! A Poem

Thought About You Today

       A Poem




By Deneale K Williams



I thought about you today.

I didn't mean to though....

I wish there was a way to say:

Or some way to let you know.

But I know you don't want found--

You chose to leave me behind...

I wish we could turn this around;

Instead I'm writing this dumb rhyme.

I'm just so soft when it comes to friends;

I will give away my heart every time---

And then it takes forever when it mends;

And I get stuck with the dime.

I'm sorry for catching you in a lie,

I guess I did overreact like a fool!

I should've ask why--

When I could've been more cool. 

You see, I've been hurt before--

And I don't understand why....

Rather than tell me more....

You just kept feeding me lies!

I thought about you today....

I remembered what you were like,

All the lies you told to make me sway;

Truly that's not what friends are like.

Next time I think of you--

I'll remember what you put me through. 






Sunday, November 23, 2014

A Poem for My New Friend: Tina Mann



A Poem for My New Found Friend:
                 Tina Mann         

Written by: Deneale K. McElhaney Williams

I'm glad I met you, 
I'm glad our paths crossed.

I remember never knowing you.
Then I even remember hating you.

Now I think of you often
And when I do....

A big smile comes across my face every time.

I wanted you to know. 
I wanted you to remember,
You are a great friend
That I'll never return to sender!

It's hard to believe I ever hated you,
It's hard to believe we just met!
But you make me smile through and through;
And to everyone else- I'll just bet!!!

So I wanted to write a little poem for you,
And let others know you're truly great;
Because now I'm glad to have met you:
And I want others to know you're great! 

Thank you for being my new found friend:

Tina Mann! 

We All Make Mistakes! A Poem

We All Make Mistakes
              Taking From Them - 
                           What Do "We" Learn
         
              A Poem 


We all make mistakes...

Notta one of us is everything we expect--

That's why we give what it takes;

Until it's something we can accept.


We have goals we wanna meet,

Stories we always tell--

Paths we take in the street;

Ways to avoid going to hell.


Nothing is gonna turn out right,

Until we fess up and admit our mistakes--

Putting our goals back in our sights;

And start giving all that it takes!


Stop hurting others we've wronged along our path,

Telling lies, spreading gossip, all that was wrong---

No matter the reasons you did it in your past;

It's time to make up for it and be strong!


Everyone makes their fair share of mistakes,

Everyone has done something very wrong---

Someone has to give whatever it takes!

Someone has to be the one that is strong!


Head held up high, 

Voice strong and firm...

All you did was try;

Now it's their turn to learn. 


Written by Deneale K. McElhaney Williams




Thursday, November 20, 2014

In Memory of Twister Tornado a Wonderful Miniature Chinese Crested!

Written in Memory of Twister Tornado

Written by Deneale K. Williams 
A Minarure Chinese Crested that was called to Heaven much too early & I think of daily.



Laying in the darkness;

Listening to you breathe.....

Cuddling together;

Never wanting to leave.


~


Once night turns to day,

Outside we go....

To Frolick and play!



You will always be missed and lived Twister, always know I cry for you every night.

Love, Mommy.